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To contemplate feelings of love in my current state is a decision driven solely off emotions. This is not only a momentously deranged desire to over dramatize several aspects of life, but, possibly the more important of the two, is that it lacks logic. If I consider an argument premise by premise, I know my decisions are poor. This is a character flaw I possess, to base the majority of my decisions and behavior off of thoughtless and debilitating emotions. Rarely, except for times of contemplation, does the logical aspect of my decisions even cross my mind.

It has been pointed out several times in my life that I only get into relationships that immediately possess some barrier to keep a safe distance between my logic and my emotions. Only so I can attempt to play it cool and not be attached when things start to go shitty.

But the big problem with this is that I either care too much or too little about relationships. There is no happy ground. Bah!! I'd rather not deal with it all together.

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